Through my little Mac book-window I am exploring a world that is made out of a billions of other notebook windows tonight - nothing else. If you love everybody you might not love anyone and if you can be anyone you might just be no one. Or maybe not.
I want to be me. And feel it. Hello 2013.
And tomorrow I am going to Amsterdam for a couple of days. Can’t wait to get out of the most exciting city in the world. Now
I will have to defend my view of Berlin again. “Oh leave Loulou, if you don’t like it here”, I hear them say, “it’s so fabulous.” Wait until you get sober. Or better – never get sober and PLEASE make sure you do not and never fully grasp the German language.
No - to be honest the only problem I have with this city is it’s everyday life never liked me. Most of it never liked me no matter what. Or to quote the cute little series girls: “we are slaves to a place that doesn’t even want us”. Or the fact that it seems to be socially inacceptable around the globe not to like Berlin. That much. Well, it will be done. I signed a contract with the devil. Ermm.. my therapist to be precise. That was the lamest post ever. But soooo authentic. Maybe I should stick to that. One agent I have approached called my language too constructed. I am in a bad moody mood today, tomorrow will be full of sweets and chips and rain and dust and disgusting and pretty sights. My legs will be long and cold, my nose red and runny, my hair a candy flossy wave of superblond curls and the hotel hopefully fabulous. And i will smell the sea, talk to people, be alive and wont sleep for days. Wear my new agent provocateur for someone. Old weirdo, him. So what - he is beautiful, as long as we can be, too, we forgive anyone who is, don't we? And i guess that's the problem with Berlin.
Ohhh its superlate but - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!