Through my little Mac book-window I am exploring a world that is made out of a billions of other notebook windows tonight - nothing else. If you love everybody you might not love anyone and if you can be anyone you might just be no one. Or maybe not.
I want to be me. And feel it. Hello 2013.
And tomorrow I am going to Amsterdam for a couple of days. Can’t wait to get out of the most exciting city in the world. Now
I will have to defend my view of Berlin again. “Oh leave Loulou, if you don’t like it here”, I hear them say, “it’s so fabulous.” Wait until you get sober. Or better – never get sober and PLEASE make sure you do not and never fully grasp the German language.
No - to be honest the only problem I have with this city is it’s everyday life never liked me. Most of it never liked me no matter what. Or to quote the cute little series girls: “we are slaves to a place that doesn’t even want us”. Or the fact that it seems to be socially inacceptable around the globe not to like Berlin. That much. Well, it will be done. I signed a contract with the devil. Ermm.. my therapist to be precise. That was the lamest post ever. But soooo authentic. Maybe I should stick to that. One agent I have approached called my language too constructed. I am in a bad moody mood today, tomorrow will be full of sweets and chips and rain and dust and disgusting and pretty sights. My legs will be long and cold, my nose red and runny, my hair a candy flossy wave of superblond curls and the hotel hopefully fabulous. And i will smell the sea, talk to people, be alive and wont sleep for days. Wear my new agent provocateur for someone. Old weirdo, him. So what - he is beautiful, as long as we can be, too, we forgive anyone who is, don't we? And i guess that's the problem with Berlin.
Ohhh its superlate but - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
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Happy New Year girl! I hate those contracts. In fact I don't think I have ever actually signed one, only talked about it. Which is good because I would have broken it...twice.
ReplyDeleteI guess that is why I've hesitated to sign one :). No one likes to be a hypocrite.
clever you!! i did not sign it, it was more a "handshake matter", but it means the same, right? ... and i will really really try my best to move, because my therpist is so sweet, some kind of ideal father figure...
Deletebut then again arent#t tose bound to be dissapointed? i 'll try not to.
Us father figures tend to always forgive too.
Deletesometimes they are the best. they do know what to forgive and when. e
DeleteHappy new year to you Loulou
ReplyDeleteI hope 2013 brings you peace and happiness
I love 'Girls'
Lena D is a genius
So real, so true, so funny
Have a lovely time in Amsterdam
Take care of you x
i soo wanted to hate it, because everyone seemed to be into it, but i LOVED 'Girls', i could so relate to it! although my bf said i remind him of the "english girl" there, duh, never!
Deletetake care of you too hun!!
xxx
I am so far from the sea.. in the middle of this country. I can't wait to get far out of here, too.
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year and much love.
xx
Lulu
Breakfast After 10
Good luck in Amsterdam. I know how is it when you're stuck where you feel like you don't belong... took me to China, Singapore and now I'm in Thailand. Everywhere else is better than the place that spits your face. So just remember you can always make the change if you really want, you don't need to stay anywhere where you don't belong!
ReplyDeleteHappy new year! <3
Happy, happy late new year lovely :)
ReplyDeleteyou'd be most beautiful out there, i'm sure.
I know that feeling of not belonging, where you should.
ReplyDelete✗ℴ✗ℴ ♡
+To Me It Matters+
come to London.
ReplyDeleteHello lovely Loulou-Lana :)
ReplyDeleteI hate Berlin, you are not alone. Strange isn't it how everyone turns on you if you don't like it! I simply say to my detractors, 'how flattering, that you should care so much for my opinion'
The new year finds me cold and distant, but never far from you!
Isobel xx
You always make me feel better. you have that quality & love the fact that you are writing again. keep going hun. please.
Deletehappy new year, love. Sorry I'm late.
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